In a nearby window, she caught the reflection of a woman eating dinner.

The image appeared familiar but unrecognizable at first glance. The once oval-shaped face was now rounded, and a “normal” body now pounds heavier. She glanced away quickly hoping the reflection was a figment of her imagination.

Who was the woman staring back at her in the window?

She was me.

Or was she? I don’t know–it’s hard to tell when your eyes are closed.

That moment of reflection was quickly and conveniently shuffled to the back of my brain, joining the ranks of all those thoughts vying for my attention, but having been denied.

And then this song played in my car:

“This Is Your Life” (partial lyrics)

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead

Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken

Don’t close your eyes,

don’t close your eyes

This is your life and today is all you’ve got now

Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have

Don’t close your eyes

Don’t close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be?

When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

By the time I finished my sing-along with Switchfoot, I’d come to these conclusions:

• Today is all I have.
  
• By “closing my eyes” (feeling sad, refusing to deal with an issue) to those things which I don’t like about myself, I’m also losing sight of the things I do like.
  
• A life “dreamed about” is only realized with eyes wide open.
  
• Who I reflect will always be more important than what I reflect.
• Eating inside will always make me feel better about myself. 🙂
  

“Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.” Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity…” Ephesians 5:14, 15a